writing again

getting the phlegm out

i finished my cup of water

there is no battery left uncharged

there is actually a pen on the table

and no excuse not to write

so here i am

apparently Chinese medicine has a remedy for getting the phlegm out

magnolia is the key ingredient

so i am trying to channel magnolias right now

and thinking of all of the pages like petals upon the ground

that have stagnated in the damp soil of my thoughts

waiting to be hung out to dry

so here i am

cringing-ly aware that what comes of this will be at first

a heap of petals past their bloom laid across the ground

but luckily i also know that compost is good

and moving energy stimulates life and growth

and if i start now

there will be at some point a clearing

and a deep breath

and i will be here

relieved to arrive back at my own feet

now i catch myself hoping for relief

and laugh,

because this process is a continual churning

and remaking and becoming

and the movement of that is fresh

and it is the freshness of that which creates relief

so the relief itself is freedom from stagnation

and these joyful skips of ink across the page

who were very tired of being caged up

might be a little out of shape

but nonetheless grateful for the legs to roam